My a’s, e’s and o’s are closed. Not a good thing for a writer.
I bought a book on how to analyze handwriting and had a friend (who teaches about it) look at a page of my cursive squiggles. The first thing she told me was that my vowels are closed. She said that means that, even though my other letters show that I’m generous and friendly, I hold my true emotions in. There’s a filter on how much I share. She told me to open them, and I’d be able to express emotion better.
I’ve tried. I still can’t do it. My vowels are still pinched looking. Maybe it’s my inner editor. But feelings are what drives fiction. What provides motivation. Scenes with emotional impact stay with us. I’ve worked hard to put deep POV in my stories, more interplay between characters. But romance? That yin/yang of love/hate? Boy, it’s hard for me. I’m a nurturer, not a hearts and flowers type of girl, so courtship isn’t my strong point. I’m not a natural at it. Neither are my grandsons.
Tyler went to two proms this year. He’s a senior in high school, close to graduating, and he attended the first prom at his own school. He went with a pretty girl he didn’t know that well. The second prom was with a girl he worked with, at her school. His brother, Nate, two years younger and only a sophomore, teased him for renting a “monkey suit” two weekends in a row, but Ty didn’t care. I listened to the boys talk about the intricate boy/girl back and forth, and realized all over again how tricky start ups are. There’s lots of room for error. Does she like me? Doesn’t she? When she laughed at me, was it because she thought I was funny or because she’s sure I’m clueless?
Novels are about relationships. The plot drives the pace, but the characters– their interactions and motivations–provide the soul of the story. I’ll read a mediocre novel if I love the characters, but I can put aside the most well-written book if I don’t care what happens to the people on the pages. And romance? I love it as a subplot in a mystery or urban fantasy, but it’s hard for me to write. I’ll never capture the angst of the Stephanie Meyer’s Twilight series. Or the chemistry between MacKayla Lane and Jericho Barrens in Karen Marie Moning’s Fever series. I guess, to this day, courtship and the “she loves me/she loves me not” type of chemistry is as much a challenge for me as it is for my boys. And writing “intimate” scenes? Lord, help me!
If you’re interested, this is a quick handwriting test for you try: http://quizstop.com/askhand.htm
And here’s a link for writing romance/love scenes: http://www.writing-world.com/romance/love.shtml